An Ordinary Start

2011-08-01T19:22:00.000-07:00

August 1, 2011

It's become quite clear that I am indeed quite ordinary. As I searched for a url for my blog, I notice that there are many other women out there that want to be "ordinary girl", "ordinary women", even "ordinarily just me". So my beginning looks no different--just another woman looking to confess her thoughts that would bore anyone else to listen (or I would be too ashamed to admit).

I realize blogs are today's diaries. I used to keep one. It felt therapeutic to do so, but these days I can't seem to find the time to pull out my journal and find a pen that works to do so consistently. Besides, my hand cramps now. So here's my attempt to keep a diary...by typing. We'll see how long this lasts, like my many other attempts at new things!

I will begin with Thought #1:
I've always found it strange, though not surprising, that my deepest thoughts and emotions are around the time of my menstral period. Why is that? Is there some hormone that regulates the intensity of my feelings? There must be. It would almost seem like that hormone - whatever it is - is what makes me female. Estrogen maybe. At times, I hate having my period. For obvious physical reasons. But there are times when I enjoy my alive I feel, as if it's the only time in the month where I'm fully awake. Aware of how awful and how wonderful life can be. A connection to man's fall perhaps?